It has been 20 years today since my mother died. The list of things I never got to share with her is long. There are so many things I didn't understand enough to be able to ask her back then.
I miss her. I wish my kids could have known their grandmother. She would have loved them so much.
Here is a poem I wrote about a dream my father had two nights before my mother died. He lived ten more years after she died.
Harvest
She draws ragged breath;
he dozes in a nearby chair.
In his dream, they walk together
along a golden lane
beside a gentle stream,
sunlit trees heavy with fruit,
luscious and ripe, beckoning to them.
She stretches out her fingers
to pull sweet peaches,
fuzzy and round, from the branches.
He also reaches for this goodness,
yet it withers and dies in his hand.
She gathers grapes, plums, and berries,
bountiful, beautiful and fresh.
He tries again and again,
but his hands hold only ashes.
She is sated but his hunger remains.
He awakens and knows
a journey started so long ago
will soon reach an end.
She is ready for the harvest—
but he will have to wait.
I'm going to tell you something about myself that I think is peculiar and gives you more of an idea of what kind of person I am or think I am. If you've ever done one of these things, then reply in the comments and post this in your journal along with something or things that you find interesting about yourself.
- In a sandwich I must have the bread lined up the way it was sliced or I won't eat it
- I find it hard not to moo when driving past cows in a field
- I love the way a sweaty horse smells
- I hate to share a drink with anybody (Exception -- on a hot day I will share with Nevada. See picture below for Nevada)
- I get a queasy feeling in my stomach when one of my kids shows me their boo-boos
- I love going to the beach but I don't really like being wet
- I have eaten an entire tube of premade cookie dough without cooking any of it
- I like to put my cold feet on my husband to warm them up (Thankfully he usually doesn't mind)
Nevada - He is so beautiful!
( Story and pictures... )
Title: When your heart's not in it
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG - strong language
Spoilers: Season 4
Disclaimers : Not my characters.
For reasons unknown to me (since I am not a Supernatural fanatic) I felt compelled to write this fic-let down last night. My only defense is that those boys are really cute and since I do live with two really over- the-top Spn fans, it must be contagious.
I have lost loved ones in my life and I know what it is like to feel an emptiness where there used to be a person. Losing someone important to you leaves a hole in your heart.
When your heart’s not in it …
( Proceed with caution... )
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) Favorite band to listen to when you're mad?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
* Grab the nearest book.
* Open the book to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.
"David Petrakis is never, ever in trouble."
from Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson
Confession -- The closest books were cookbook and craft books. So I skipped them and picked up the next closest book. This is one of my daughter's books which I have not read. She recommends it. Perhaps I will read it now.
If you have read this far, tag you are it.
Nevermore
My story now begins in the middle,
the beginning has been lost.
How will I understand the rest?
Sorrow heavy as an anvil on my chest
heart empty as a paper sack
after the groceries have been put away
Once standing between me and eternity,
she departed from this earth.
Motherless, I mourn this day.
In deep canyons carved by grief,
heart cries out and echoes return
across the hollowness inside.
I have learned the truth.
Immortality is beyond my reach;
I am a child nevermore.
Title: If Only
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Notes: This was started as a gift for my crazy, maniacal in-house "Supernatural" fan and then my muse galloped away, so I had to give it to her unfinished. Since I don't watch the show, you will have to get over anything that doesn't fit canon. If this looks familar to some of you, it was originally posted by
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( If only... )
Title: Man in the Mirror
Disclaimer: Just a guy I’ve heard of... not my original character. I don't even watch this friggin' show, but I live with a maniacal "Supernatural" fanatic who never shuts up about the show.
Genre: gen
Rating: G
